How making porn improved my relationship to my body

How making porn improved my relationship to my body
A short essay by GoAskAlex

As a porn performer, I have had the unique opportunity to explore my own relationship with my body in a way that has been transformative and empowering. At first, the idea of performing nude in front of strangers seemed daunting, but as I delved into this world, I found that it allowed me to see my body in a completely different light.

For starters, it prompted me to confront any negative feelings I had about my body head-on. It’s one thing to try to cover up your perceived flaws with clothing, but being naked takes away that option. At first, this was scary, but I quickly found that the more I performed, the more comfortable I became with my body. I learned to appreciate the imperfections that make up my unique form, and to see the beauty in my perceived flaws.

“I learned to appreciate the imperfections that make up my unique form, and to see the beauty in my perceived flaws.“

My career as an adult entertainer has also taught me to focus on the present moment. When I’m filming, I need to be fully present. That intense focus on the task at hand can almost feel meditative. It’s a time when I can let go of any worries or concerns and just be in the moment. This has translated to other areas of my life as well, as I’ve learned to be more present and mindful in my day-to-day activities.

Perhaps most importantly, working as a porn performer has helped me to see my body as a tool for artistic expression. It’s not just about how it looks, but about how it can be used to create something beautiful. It has helped me to shift my focus away from societal beauty standards and towards what my body is capable of.

“working as a porn performer has helped me to see my body as a tool for artistic expression”

Of course, sex work isn’t for everyone, and it’s important to make sure you’re doing it in a safe and consensual environment. For me, it has been a powerful tool for improving my relationship with myself and my body. It’s taught me to see myself in a new light, to appreciate my own unique beauty, and to be present in the moment.